What am I Doing?

I mean that in two different ways: "What am I doing?" as in, "How did I manage to neglect this poor blog for over a YEAR?" and "What am I doing?" -like, "Oh, you really wanna know..."

I've tried to start back so many times but kept deleting my drafts because, well...I thought I had lost a little of my "funny." I would write and delete, write and delete. Nothing was sounding witty or agreeable. It was more sad and self loathing. And who wants to read that? I sure don't and I'm one of the only ones reading this.

And that's when I had my epiphany: I shouldn't care about what other people are going to think about my blog. It's just an open diary that's lost in space anyway. I need this to document my day to day activities so I can look at it years later and think, "Wow...that's one hell of a typo."

So, lets get started! Instead of starting off doing a series of recaps on what's happened in the past YEAR-plus (that'll come later), I've decided to start by listing the things I'm trying to incorporate in my life to improve myself (also so I won't forget):

1. Cooking: One of the most important things to me besides eating. Watching Anthony Bourdain's No Reservations isn't helping my need to travel or my want of a bigger kitchen. Right now, I'm just cooking for myself. At first it wasn't much fun since I wasn't cooking to entertain anybody but now, I love it. All I have to do is satisfy my own tongue...but that's actually not as easy as I thought.

2. Pilates: My small apartment won't allow me to Zumba without rearranging my entire living room setup. I finally found the perfect workout video on Netflix (God bless it) that doesn't require room to breakdance. I'm trying to do this every other day to "strengthen my core." Nah, I'm doing it because I can't just sit on my couch all day after class.

3. Arm workout: I bought some Pilates bands. I really like them but I haven't really used them to do a whole workout. Now, I'm just using the bands to help me stretch when my muscles are feeling a little hypertonic and most importantly, I'm doing a couple 1 min triceps workouts throughout the day to strengthen my arms. *They need it!

4. Writing letters: And I mean actual letters with stamps and hand written addresses. I sent some Mothers Day cards that made me miss getting and sending real letters. I used to have a pen pal and I guess I had forgotten the feeling of getting something in the mail that was personalized and littered with stickers and hearts. I'm going to try to mail something once a month, at least. I hope my bestie doesn't mind.

5. Go to the beach: I finally live close to water and I really haven't taken advantage of it. Why? Because I'm scared about the locals judging my body. Who cares? It's not like this particular beach is Cabo or Cancun! I need to get out there, every other weekend at least! I need the color anyway!

6. Drink 8 Cups of Water: With class, I have to keep myself hydrated. I got this new app that keeps track of my water intake and I'm loving it. I can't honestly say that I feel any different but I hope overtime I'll be able to tell!

7. Doing something before I can find a way to talk myself out of it: I just discovered this. I was going back and forth about whether to workout one day and decided to get my body up while my brain was still deciding what it wanted to do. Surprisingly, I did my video and felt better! Imagine that!

Well, that's all I have for now. I'm sure I'll think of more things later on and I hope to get myself typing before my brain stops me! Lets hope this start doesn't end after 3 posts! Wish me luck!